sucon

oops

so right now, my life is pretty damn good. i just had a normal, no frills weekend. it was nice, and i enjoyed it. things have been crazy hectic, with very few minutes off of something. even this weekend it feels like i was always kinda doing somethign. this is the problem with my chosen life. in school, in acadamia, there's not really time off. unless you follow a really strict schedule, which i'm not very good at. so basically, i always have something to do. it also doesnt help that there's a lot of work going on in my apartment right now too.

but what i really want to write about is how i'm not actually happy. like i have no real signs of it. in fact, i seem upset. i'm mean to people and i snap and i have absolutely no patience. what the fuck? i don't mean to be. i want to feel and act happy. like i feel it sometimes. when i'm walking down the street, and i see a beautiful dog, or someone laughing, or i even just think about my life i feel happy. but then someone says something and i just snap. i need to figure this out.

posted by lindsey @ 5:16 AM