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mcdonald's smells funny today

so all of my friends are planning all these trips and it's weirding me out. mainly because i have almost no desire to go traveling. and i don't really know why. well, i kind of do. planning it is always a hassle, people get on my nerves when i spend time with them nonstop, as you do when you're traveling, and there are very few people that i can imagine putting up with for a whole trip. that's kinda sad and maybe means that i should have more patience. well, i know i can survive vacations, i've done it before. i've even had fun. but i can't help but see all the ways these trips can go wrong. and so the desire to spend the money on something that might be awful is not there. thinking about trips i've taken in the past i see that i often get depressed on trips. i don't know why. maybe too much time to think? maybe because i went on the trip when i was already depressed. i know that's true for at least two trips i can remember. and i guess i'm kind of afriad of inflicting my depressed self on people here. though there is no guarentee i'll get upset on a trip we might take. ok, my thoughts are all over the place here. i clearly have not thought enough about this. there's also the fact that i'm mildly overwhelmed by all that i Could see here. fucking a, i'm in europe. pretty much anywhere i go will be new. sigh..i need to think before i write more about this.

in general news. things are going well. i have a week of vacation now. mary ann (my british friend) and i are going to be tourists in paris, which sounds like fun cause i haven't done a lot of the big sights yet. and in less than two weeks jenny arrives, which will be cool. gotta show the big sis around paris. went on a second date with a boy. went very well. gonna see him again this weekend. lots of thoughts on that, but not gonna put them here yet either. sorry, world. that i'm sounding so reticent. um, other things. i'm not feeling completely healthy, but don't know what's goin on. every morning i wake up and my chest feels as if i've smoked a pack of cigarettes the night before. while this makes sense when i've gone out to a bar it doesn't make sense recently because i have't been out near a lot of smokers. i'm also tired a lot of the time. grrr. oh well. some good news is that i had a conversation with a woman in french yesterday. and i understood her really well. and i made whole sentences and communicated everythign i wanted to. i spoke with her well enough that she gossiped with me about some of the students who arrived from nyu who don't speak a word of french. that made me feel good. at least i'm better off than them. she also said that by the time i leave i'll be speaking french well. hopefully she'll be right. so tongiht i'm going out with a bunch of people from school, which means they're not american. which is cool. it's kinda fun to be the only american in a group. makes me feel special. ;-) you know, in the short bus way. haha. hadn't said that joke in a while. ok, gonna post some pics.

posted by lindsey @ 3:39 PM